Wednesday, January 31, 2007
would lyk to thank sum ppl..
most imptly..
my fellow LaMeRs..
JIM.. LONTENG.. VENNY..
MERLYN.. MINDY..
my motivation to nt give up..
much as i lyk to jus forsake sum resposibities & task..
but i noe there's still ur for me..
giving me the energy to push on..
n thanz ZML22..
ah liang..
for the hourly calls..
askin if i facing any probs on revision..
offerin me help where possible..
ty..
yup.. i still young..
study hard play hard..
=)
thE gamE
------ 1/31/2007 01:13:00 PM ------
Exams R here..
again..
havin it since pri 1..
thats more abt 10 years abt le ba..
haiz.. n more is to come..
havin a paper in the evening later..
y cannot morning paper sia..
arghh...
unable to absorb anything!!
XIONG DUO JI SHAO!!
haiz..
wt a negative post..
PEEE.. DE.. ENGG MATHS..
3 more to go..
its either die or survive..
nthin as remain unchanged le..
JIANLIANG!!
ALL IS NT TOO LATE!!
strive for the other 2??
humans r always lyk tt..
must learn the hard way..
hope wun fail ba..
words from a post i had quite long ago..
PreLims R over...
Result = SuX
not 1 subj i had done well...
though improved frm mid yr grades,
its still too bad.....
too lousy...
i tried but failed...
did i nt try hard enuf??
m i uncapable of gd grades??
who noes.... who cares....
4 weeks n 4 days to O Lvl...
can i make it??
Shld I give up or try agaIn??
Falling Hurts...
again tots came to me..
y izznt i'm able to perform at all..
m i overconfident??
n will find out i'm nt tt gd again??
wat a fake world..
quote from a fren..
"nthin is as constant as change itself"
hw true man...
haiz..
WAKE UP!!
n to those idiots (or mayb jus a idiot),
tryin to b funny at my tagboard..
if u think its fun sitting in front of ur com,
using other ppl names,
saying rubbish in my tagboard,
GET A LIFE LA..
i'm sad for ur parents..
giving birth to a retarded..
brainless idiot..
so sad..
=(
thE gamE
------ 1/31/2007 12:58:00 PM ------
Monday, January 29, 2007
ytd was last day at work..
at NTUC.. sun plaza.
it was nt hw a amazing or super wonderful place..
but aft spending 401 working days there..
still gt sum feelings..
from 402 days ago from now..
enter like a noob.. fresh to everything..
n go fresh department..
dfen under vegetable..
sianz.. i hate to eat vegetable.
yet gt to face them everyday..
lols..
haha..
only work morn shift at start..
so had to learn opening..
which is to load onto shelves the veges..
damn tiring..
den few weeks later have to "learn"
to use the jack le..
n pull pallets in e morn..
heng i "play" wit jacks b4..
haha..
so no big diff..
=)
den aft tt. was last year CNY.
damn fun.. climb high n low..
seriously..
haha..
den gt a small dinner..
nt bad wor.. gd gd..
den a few stock takes,
ya.. nt to mention a fren gained..
ZhenXiang!!
cut vege tgt.. eat nasi lemak plus chicken wing & chilli..
standard..
nt to forget.. pearly soya ice blended..
abalone!!! free pepsi!!
lols..
fun days..
slack tgt too.. haha.. slp in lib rmb??
haha..
den slowly cut faster n faster..
so go hm earlier n earlier..
LOLs..
den gt transfer to fruits..
zhen xiang too..
haha..
load fruits instead of vege le..
but still gt to pull pallets.. so stupid..
den sum night shifts..
even slack de.. except closing.. so siong..
haiz..
den D&D.. nt bad dinner.. haha..
but all aunties.. wasted i go 2nd day,
if nt go find out hw her mum looks lyk..
but den again..
tian xia wu bu san de yan xi..
ytd.. it marks my end as a RA there..
gd bye my fellow fresh food sections comrades..
n ya.. we a few.. jus a few lame photos..
last day..
drink using "bowls".. haha..
cheers..
thE gamE
------ 1/29/2007 08:13:00 PM ------
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Izznt life jus lyk a story.
Had a beginning of everything and a final ending..
between that..
is chapters n chapters..
every new chapt close one day..
markin the start of the next chapter..
overlappin de is ppls n feelings..
chapts ends chapts start..
all this is part of life..
unchangeable..
chapters i rmb:
pri sch..
went n cried on 1st day of sch..
lost of wat to do in the enormous crowd of ppl..
fear arises as parents left me wit unknown ppl..
thats the chapt where ppl start enterin my life book ba..
6 years of pri sch life..
seem so long yet so short..
jus went by n we were as PSLE certs holders,
sittin in pri1 classroom talkin abt hw we might become..
years down the road..
if we can ever meet up anymore..
den sadly parted and move on to the next chapter of our life..
sec sch life..
with sum ppl still in being casted in the sec sch chapter..
4 yrs.. even shorter.. den pri sch life..
but as grow up abit le..
more feelins..
more attacted to the sec sch..
memories stay in the mind..
but all is the past..
again
gt to move on..
lyk it or nt..
while all this chapters r running,
sub chapters oso there..
working life.. love life..
been tru abt 4 workin life..
warehse for a start..
still young.. work for fun.. jus a mth..
no special feelings..
den next is banquet waiter..
frm a total beginner thats damn slow..
slowly learn till can consider a near pro..
but still theres a last day of work still..
acting noob on the final day to keep the mood light..
n now.. leaving the place i been workin in for 1 yr plus le..
jus 1 yr 1 mth..
but still gt feelings de ma..
FTG..
fairprice trollley gang..
push trolley down carpark road..
i mean drift?
playin ID tgt at gatherin of FTG..
den affliations of snake gang..
well known to eat snake..
haha.. nice leh..
den.. workin wit partners lyk zhenxiang..
frm veggie cutting at first..
rushin everyday.. till can go lib slp!!
den go over fruits..
frm again
rushin everyday to can eat oso!!
everything seem to had go so fast..
n tml.. the final day i'll b a RA there..
aft tt... bye bye le..
no choice.. MOVE ON BA..
find another job..
LOLs..
thE gamE
------ 1/27/2007 06:42:00 PM ------
Based on a true story..
3 yrs ago.. 2005
There was this sec3 boy and a sec1 gal..
2 sha gua.
Studying in the same school..
They like each other but..
the gal concealed her feelings..
the guy said nothing..
the guy tot the gal had sum1 else in e heart..
wit a rumor spreadin str..
even acknowledge by e gal..
the gal thought, the guy and her best friend are
together, so in order not to jeopardize the friendship between her friend and the guy,
so she lied liking sum1 else..
they sms-ed almost everyday..
during lesson and recess even home and in cca..
chatted at times.. on phone at night..
talking bout studies to gossip to even craps
n while so much conversations r going on,
there's still email send daily..
it seems extra and pits.
yet it still goes on..
till it changes in the next yr..
email cutted off sharply..
bcuz of one msn chat one day..
replacing the email for tt day
ending the email that had been there for so long..
blank msn windows on the screen.
lookin n waiting..
but one didn’t noe e other oso waiting..
the guy:
every morn play bball wit ppl who actually dun really noe hw to play..
cause he noes she’s lookin..
noes she will at least walk by..
sum times stopping to play too..
to see her walk by oso happy..
end up sweatin even b4 lessons. =.=everyday aft school the guy will sneak out from his clique..
to go up to the lib.. to use the laptop..
to..?? checked and also to reply email..
email from the girl..
secretly peek at the laptop loaning logs..
to see if the gal had been there..
and at chance the gal is still at e lib..
yet face to face, nothing much is said..
because too much is said on phone n online??
No one know the actual reason.
sms to ask if she had been to the lib "today"..
if she jus left.
when he already knew from the log book..
yet he send those stupid sms..
said those rubbish..
walking behind the gal on the way out of school..
yet never had the courage to walk up to her or call out to her..
walk past band room to see e gal..
yet acted like as though there was nothing
wan ask her out yet never manage to find the guts..
till finally a chance alone.. yet still didn’t say out anything!!
sitting at mac jus listenin to discman..
assuming what he heard as truth..
cuz aft all it all seem so true..
lyk e verse in “tongnain” goes..
“ge pi ban de na ge nui hai zhem me hai mei jing guo wo de chuang qian”..
Lookin out to the corridor wonderin if she will walk past to go to the toilet..
when actually theres oso toilet at junior block..
but the best fren usually ard..
so tot nthin much.. jus lookin out..
classmates knew buthe manage stop them from spreading..
abit.. rite or wrong no1 noes..
days passed.. months passed.. a yr went by..
he promoted to sec 4..
made to have self study periods every single day aft school..
made no more trip to lib..
hp lost n the sms stopped..
his clique n her clique had some minor probs..
contact dropped.. email stopped..
moved on aft o lvl..
the gal:
trying her best to go to the library every single day to use the com
as an excuse but was rather there to catch a glimpse of him
was waiting for him to talk to her, smile at her or even to just look at her
then, finally, they managed to talk to each other with the help of mutual friends
the girl thought that the guy and her best friend were together, so she kept things to herself
her clique would always ask the guy who he likes, and that if he like her best friend,
her heart was in turmoil, she wanted the guy to admit that he likes her but on the other hand,
she was afraid of losing her friendship with her best friend. .
she played basketball for him but yet he never knew.
The guy never voiced out who he liked, but due to girls’ instincts, she was able to tell that the guy was fond for her and she knew clearly that she was in love with him.
so each day was like a nightmare to her.
Pretending the on outside that there’s nothing wrong but late at night, she cries herself to sleep.
Each time, telling herself to forget him, there’s no future waiting for him.
Slowly, as the year end and proceeded, the guy had his own clique of friends and another set of close girl friends, her clique and her, slowly lost contact with him totally,
They used to write emails, and msn and sms and chatting on the phone.
All this suddenly, came to a stale stand. Each day, the girl would make an effort
To go online, to see him online, clicking his conversation box, staring at his display picture,
Waiting for him to chat with her again, like it was before. Yet, it never happened anymore.
All was lost.
But, she could not tell anyone, not even her best friends. She only can “suffer” silently.
Then, she would stand at the junior block outside her classroom, to see him from a distant,
Talking happily to other girls, while tears started to flow out.
“ WHAT WENT WRONG?” she would ask herself, “was our friendship that weak?”
she never mustered up the courage to admit her feelings for him.
Then, the guy had to sit for his Os and finally he graduated. He left without a word.
Little, did he know that, the day of his graduation, the girl dreamt that
The guy was in a suit, the girl was in a bridal dress, walking down the aisle,
happily. The girl woke up from her sleep and started to cry thinking that there
will never be such a day anymore. And that was when, she finally understood to let go.
abt 2 yrs later.
late 2006..
the guy for sum unknown reason went back to the old sch..
n saw her.. walk past..
n finally.. he called out to her..
n had a chat at e same old study area..
played the piano at e hall..
no more spammed sms..
no more email..
but they manage go out..
but he didnt send her hm!!
stupid guy.. cuz he almost wasted it..
e next day went back intentionally..
n manage send the gal hm..
den aft 3 yrs from they know each other.. they gt tgt..
morale of the story..
fate is something u can nv predict..
something unexplainable, irregular and beyond control..
chances are rare..
cherish the one before u..
dun wait till its gone..
say wat u wan others to noe..
n nv ASSUME..
if u get a 2nd chance,
GRAB IT!!
memories r sweet..
but the present can b more beautiful..
Overdue: 2 years 8 months.
Fine: Cherish the other party
thE gamE
------ 1/27/2007 05:44:00 PM ------
Thursday, January 18, 2007
down wit a unknown virus?
send for repair yet come back..
IN E SAME CONDITION!!
stupid repair center..
waste my time going down..
so had to go down again tml..
wat de..
gonna complain tml..
so unprofessional de..
change wat is ok..
n did nt fix the prob..
kaoz..
argh..
exams in less den 2 weeks le..
haven revise yet..
will i make it??
argh.. pray..
.. .. .. .. ..
every1 jiayou ar!!
thE gamE
------ 1/18/2007 08:47:00 PM ------
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
hmm..
40 little hearts..
wat does it stands for..??
jim ask me once..
so i told him:
i jus fold all the straws i have
tru e nite..
so end up wit 40..
nthin special..
haha..
den all tot 40 gt meaning..
where will have??
haiz..
gals always think too deep..
sumtimes guys too..
haha..
den a idiotic eng hwee go ask for meaning.
so she ask mi for meaning..
hw to find..
wun get it de..
so no choice..
lame out 1 meaning..
in 3 minutes..
nt bad..
haha..
jus tt very lame...
wan noe den go ask mindy..
haha...
=)
thE gamE
------ 1/17/2007 01:19:00 PM ------
laptop broke down le..
had a software formatting..
yet didnt solve e prob..
suspected to b hardware broke down le..
kena slam too much?
nt me ba..
haiz..
dun have laptop,
realise hw much imiss it..
arghhhh..
den here i m at ACER service center..
waiting to repair it..
T.T
hope it get well soon!!!
thE gamE
------ 1/17/2007 01:17:00 PM ------
Sunday, January 14, 2007
very long nv post le..
since wed (10/01)
bcuz my laptop cant seem to post wit my hse connection!!
haiz..
thurs 11/01
missed sch..
morn gave out 40 little hearts??
lol..
made tru the nite..
haha..
den send her to sch..
aft tt tot alot at yishun..
aft tt went out walk walk..
=)
Fri 12/01
went back AISS partly bcuz of CCA open hse..
partly her..
partly LaMeRs gatherin!!
wanted to go eat ban mee..
n have a nice chat..
but den..
i gt her along..
to let them noe each other..
but didnt make it..
soonwei were there too..
he's consider a half LaMeR ba..
nt up to standard??
haha..
hm.. he quite quiet.. as expected..
nthin much to say abt him..
den kerwin tag along too..
hmm..
me n him 8 zi bu he de..
haiz..
den sum1 said..
"if mindy can go y nt kerwin?"
so i gt no rights to chase him off..
n i DIDNT..
i gt a reason i gt her there..
nt for kerwin..
but it past le..
miss e gd chance for a gd chat..
when can we have our chat?
haiz..
hmm..
den we went drinkin abit..
jus abit..
den haiz..
dun say le..
gek sim ar!!!
did more den expected actually expected..
n alot didnt happen..
even worse!!
haiz..
aft tt talk to jim tru the nite..
let down LaMeRs abit..
arghhhh!!!!!
idiotic..
=(
sat 13/01
went work w/o slp..
haha..
den talk on fone too!!!
sun 14/01
today..
laptop spoilt!!
bag broke down!!
haiz.. bad day..
no mood totally..
work no mood..
eat no mood..
play no mood..
den came jim hse..
blog.. play abit piano..
den slack..
---
once i recieve alot of stupid email b4..
den gt once tt goes lyk..
a guy n a gal..
met in sch days..
den e gal lyk e guy..
n e guy lyk e gal..
but none said it out..
cuz they tot e other party didnt even notice him/her..
till one day..
e gal pass away..
n e guy read her dairy..
realise e gal lyk him too..
but its all too late..
~~
nv believe such stuff is practical..
cuz lyk when e gal die,
hw e guy get e dairy..
when e guy lyk tt gal..
y so long nv say..
gt tt dumb?
yet.. it took place!!
jus abit differently..
haha..
details too long say here..
haha..
---
(tot of e day)
dreams r to b dream..
goals r to b worked towards..
humans r to b loved..
thE gamE
------ 1/14/2007 08:40:00 PM ------
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
iN the raiNbow of my life..
the red..
is missiNg..
vibraNt red?
cuz i wish the red wiLL
make my Life more coLourfuLL..
but i waN to teLL the other 6 pLL..
u'r r stiLL tt impt to me..
wit or without red..
i Noe..
this time rouNd..
i haviN No support..
mayb bcuz of e past..
mayb of others reasoN..
i duNNo..
N i shaLL Nt assume..
LMS..
ur r forever the most impt coLours..
wat i waN is jus support frm ur N i shaLL hav No fears to move oN..
wiLL i succedd or faLL??
i duNNo..
but i'LL Nv Noe..
if i duN try..
so shLd i try?
red..
is e feeLiNg rite?
is the timiNg rite?
is wat i doiNg rite?
who caN teLL me?
haiz..
thE gamE
------ 1/10/2007 10:35:00 AM ------
Let me deLicate this post for my dear LaMeRs..
fouNd ur iN AISS..
sum frm sec1 sum frm sec3..
but tt is Nt impt..
wats impt is ur r aLL as impt to me..
i waN ur to Noe..
ur had Nv Left my heart..
beeN tru aLot wit u guys..
a hugh thaNk you for aLL of u..
=)
i wish ur aLL the best iN this New yr..
may aLL ur wish come true..
i Look forward to this fri baN mee gatheriNg!!
=)
thE gamE
------ 1/10/2007 10:26:00 AM ------
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
my beautifuL raiNbow:
(e coLours)
vibraNt red - uNtakeN
bright oraNge - LoNgteNg
cheerfuL yeLLow - Jamie
iNNoceNt greeN - veNNy
cooL bLue - Jim
deep iNdigo - merLyN
cute vioLet - JaNet
guys.. & gaLs of cuz..
ty for beiNg here for me..
tru my darkest days..
wheN i was Low..
when i feLL..
ur wouLd come to my miNd..
"I LOVE YOU"
tt's wat i waNNa teLL ur..
u'r forever iN my heart..
thE gamE
------ 1/09/2007 07:48:00 PM ------
Monday, January 08, 2007
today was the start of aNother sch term..
term 4!!!
Last Lap of year 1!!
wake up damN earLy..
4.45am..
eat oNe piece of bread N miLo den Left hm Le..
haiz..
bcuz of sum1..
haha...
deN accideNtaLLy cuz sumthiN bad..
greeN tea + doNut = iNdigestioN ??
arghh...
i’m sry k..
=p
deN weNt sch..
wit Jim
hahaha..
caLL veNNy who stiLL sLpin..
but Jim caLLed me iNstead..
haha..
deN we board this Lame mrt..
cLose door..
off Lights..
oN Lights..
off agaiN..
deN aNNouNce spoiLt..
wat de..
deN bcuz of tt we Late Le..
N mrt aLL very packed..
haiz..
deN sch starts..
wit Labtest 2..
digitaL eLectroNics..
gt fuLL marks for practicaL parts..
haha..
fiNaLLy 1st to compLete wit 100% rite!!
yeah!!
deN my drawiN..
very same as staNdard aNs!!!
omg!!
start off wit a gd day N sch!!
yeah!!
STUN!!!
haha..
deN miss PEEE..
cuz No 1 waN go..
LoL..
so weNt back AISS...
haha..
deN saw kerwiN..
who su kuo wit me..
LoL..
but i go back Nt for ListeN him taLk..
haha..
sry kerwiN..
haha..
go back pLay piaNo..
deN realise caNoN iN d totaLLy caNt pLay Le..
heNg caNoN iN c stiLL caN pLay..
Jus Nt very Nice..
=)
right here waitiNg ttaLLy goNe..
=(
deN came a JiNgLe..
who i didNt saw..
Nt fair..
LoL..
Nvm..
Nt tt impt..
haha..
deN merlyN weNt back too..
but i left earlier deN her..
---
wheN caN we have our baN mee gatheriNg??
m i thiNkiN too much..
thiNkiN too far?
wats tt thiNg i waN..
tt i Nid?
Love? care? coNcern?
Jus a Lame persoN..
---
(tot of the day)
every1 is haviN diff faces at diff pLaces..
iN froNt of diff ppLs..
the most commoN is:
NumbNess
thE gamE
------ 1/08/2007 07:04:00 PM ------
Thursday, January 04, 2007
New year Le..
2007..
a braNd New year..
a New start they says..
a bad oNe for me..
Nt eveN New yr
N i'm dowN wit food poisoNiNg..
miss out so much..
deN came arguemeNts..
uNhappiNess..
wat a yr..
crap..
New yr Nids No resoLutioN...
haviN famiLy probs which i shaLL Nt say much here le..
---
e way to survive is simpLe..
put oN a mask of smiLes..
N duN speak too much truth..
---
(tot of the day)
the diff iN "god" bro[s] / sis[s] &
famiLy bro[s] / sis [s] is
the bLood..
so wats so speciaL abt e bLood where
there's oNLy "o ; a ;b ; ab"..
thE gamE
------ 1/04/2007 09:09:00 PM ------
